I would really like to get back in touch with someone who commented on my blog a long time ago and used to email me but I don’t think the address I have works any more. PJ, if you still read my blog please email again. I have been going through some old emails of mine and I can’t believe how kind and supportive you were to me when I was at my lowest point. I know you had your own problems and I dearly hope you are still here.
Tell people why they should dislike you enough and eventually they will. I don’t know why I do this, I just can’t seem to help it. It’s like I have to convince anyone who may have a positive opinion about me that they are wrong. This is something I have done over and over, driving away what few people who have been kind enough to talk to me.
Maybe deep down I just want people to hate me? I don’t know or understand why.