Why do people hate me? I just walked my sister to the bus stop and on my way back someone decided to scream as loud as they could out of a car window at me and then drive off 😦 Why is looking weird a reason to be punished over and over?
I’m so utterly sick of myself and everything in my life. I feel like I could just cry for hours but I don’t want to. I want to hurt myself, I fucking hate who I’ve become and how pathetic I am, I hate this stupid, repulsive body and every insult and laugh it’s caused me to suffer. I hate my retarded defective brain, I just wish I could see it crushed on the pavement. 24 years is long enough of being a laughing stock.
Of course I have no friends to console me, no one to give me a hug. All I can do is complain impotently to the internet. I’m a waste of life.
I don’t know if i can wait until next week. i feel like stabbing myself a hundred times