Psychiatrist Appointment Tomorrow

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It’s here at last, I seem to have been waiting an eternity to see an actual psychiatrist. My appointment is tomorrow morning and the nerves had already set in a few days ago. I didn’t get more than 3 hours sleep last night, I was lying awake worrying until 4:30am, hopefully tonight will be a little better. That is actually something I want to talk to them about, my incredibly haphazard sleeping. One night I might only get a few hours, like yesterday, and sometimes I sleep in until 1 in the afternoon and can hardly stay awake during the day.

One thing I’m really hoping to get out of tomorrow is the opportunity to try some different meds. I’m coming up to one of the most stressful and difficult times in my life for a long time, leaving home and going to university. This seems like a valid situation where prescribing me some benzos would be useful. I don’t want to fall to pieces the first day I get there, I won’t have anyone to hold my hand and therapy is still a distant dream so it’d be nice to have some help. When I had the diazepam after my visit to A&E, it helped a lot to calm my shaking and racing heart/thoughts. I could really do with even a tiny supply of them to help get me through the most stressful few days.

I was always scared to ask about them before since I’d heard that they are almost impossible to get prescribed for social anxiety, but after seeing the psychiatrist at the hospital who recommended I could use them in the above scenario, I think I might grasp this chance and ask. One of my great fears is that they will think I am a drug seeker, when nothing could be further from the truth. I don’t smoke, take any illegal drugs or even drink for goodness sake, but it’s still a thought lingering in the back of my mind.

Goodness knows what will come of the appointment, I’m preparing myself for disappointment but also bearing in mind that it has taken months and months to get this arranged and I don’t want to miss my chance at possibly getting some help. I’m prepared to be honest with them and try my hardest to force the words out of my throat even though I know my body will make that as hard as possible.

I’ll report back after it’s all over.

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6 thoughts on “Psychiatrist Appointment Tomorrow

  1. uncensoredmind

    i hope ur visit goes well and that u get the help thats available to you.

    i thought abt something … since it seems so difficult for u to get the words out, maybe u could copy and past snippets of ur posts. just the stuff u want to make the psychiatrist aware of.

    im really glad u were able to maintain ur composure through-out this week. it seems u were having a really hard time with university starting soon. this is another positive for u šŸ™‚

    take care … be safe

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  2. fearandselfloathing

    hi
    glad to know you are going to see someone – hope it goes well.
    when i was at uni i found that they had an excellent gp surgery on site for students, and that the waiting lists to see people like psychiatrists were much much shorter than at a ‘normal’ gps.
    best of luck for today
    x

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  3. Good luck with your appointment, make sure you say everything you want to say and need to say (I have a terrible habit of leaving important things out). Hope it goes well.

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  4. Thanks Hannahs šŸ˜‰

    I actually wrote this last night, the appointment was this morning and it was ok. I feel too mentally drained to write about it now but I will tomorrow. I’m sure you will be on the edge of your seats until then..

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