Well I didn’t get into my first choice of university but I did get offers from all the others. In the end I decided to go with Lincoln since it looks like a really nice place and the course sounds great. I had confirmed my place and sent off the accommodation form and everything when I was hit with a bombshell yesterday. Apparently I am not going to get any tuition fee loan because I’ve been on a higher education course before 😦 This is so frustrating, I don’t have that kind of money laying around, £3000 is a lot.
I was utterly distraught when I found this out, the horrible suicidal thoughts came rushing back, I don’t know what I’d do if I couldn’t go back to uni. It’s taken me so long to feel as though I’m mentally ready and I had things all planned out and finally felt like there was something positive to look forward to and my life was not just a series of disappointments waiting to happen but now it’s all shattered.